I found the Insanity 60-day schedule online & since today is Monday, I re-did the Fit Test. Just to make things easier to record, I’m starting it over since I took Sunday off.
I’m not sure if it was harder or easier today than it was on Saturday but it felt good.

I want to get an HRM but I’m super unsure of which brand or model to get. Hmm..

Memorial Day. My sister CA & I took our dogs to the nearest dog beach (1hr drive). We only packed watermelon & no water. Completely forgot to get some on the way. Oh well. We ended up staying about 1.5 hrs. Tanned a bit & put the dogs in the water.
We came home & devoured some veggie chili from Trader Joe’s. We also had some hummus & flatbread. Needless to say, we ate ourselves into a coma. We passed out into a long nap.
I woke up 3 hrs later & began tumblin’. I knew I had to work out but had no energy. Finally I found some motivation & kicked my saggy butt into gear.
I’ve been really concentrated in getting back into shape. I was looking at my pictures from my progress blog. I lookedso much better back in November :(

I’ll get back to it.

So I’m starting over. Day 1. Insanity kicked my butt even worse than the first time I did it last fall. I really let myself go again. How disappointing. It’s the winter, man.. Winter depression gets me down :(

Welp, nothing I can do about it now except get myself back into shape & hope to god I keep it up.

Motivation & Goals?

• Size 0 - 00
• Under 95 lbs (4’11”)
• 4th of July
• Summer, bikinis, tanning
• Hook ups
• Do a marathon in the fall
• Bike everyday to/from work (10mi each way)

I miss purging. I was skinny. I felt thin. I was a mess & so secretive but I was skinny. I’d rather be like that again. I hated the puffiness though. I didn’t want to look like a marshmellow-face, so I quit purging but I didn’t stop over-eatting. Now I’m fat again… Never ending fucking battle!